Personal Writings- Intimacy

Nothing is more stimulating, more exhausting, more beautiful, than intimacy. The thought of two people that love each other more than they love themselves, coming together as one is simply unbelievable. But people that use such a wonderful thing for jut pleasure dont know the true beauty and feelings that it can give you. Its more than just an action, its an expression.

Personal Writings- Trust

Trusting is hard, you rely on the person you love most to be truthful, self-restrained, and to suppress. And in return they must do the same. But eventually you find someone, and even though you might be envious and your stomach feels restless and uneasy. Your heart is content because deep down its unquestioning. Some might think youre naive, but you know all is fine. And with an eternity to spend, each day get easier.

Personnal Writings- Truth vs. Lies

Is it better to tell the truth and risk losing someone. Or to lie and protect them.

Personal Writings- Depression Reality

How do you get mad at someone that hurts so badly? Its like digging your nails into an open wound. It already hurts from the initial cut, and now you go back and rip it open. They didnt ask for this to happen, they didnt ask to feel this way. You act like its their fault and take it out on them and in the end you make them hate not only you, but themselves as well. They dont have attitude, they arent mad at you and choosing to show no emotion. They physically cant. To try and put on a smile doesnt feel right, it hurts. They arent mad at you, or anyone else, they are just lost in themselves. That blank stare that you think means theyre ignoring you, is just their lack of emotion. They literally feel nothing. They want to feel happy, they want to feel something besides sorrow, but they just cant.

Song Quotes-

You might think Im happy, but Im not gonna be okay

-Welcome to my Life by Simple Plan

Personal Writings- Let Your Eyes Speak

Looking into his eyes and I cant keep from smiling. I see the world, my world. I see his struggles, his hopes, and dreams. I see a fighter, he wont give up. Not because he has no other choice, but because he cant. In his eyes I see us, together, happy. I see my future, my happiness, and my life. Because he is my life and the thought of this fills me with joy. And when I lean back and look at him, I know he feels the same way.

Personal Writings- Reflection

Walk to your mirror and look at yourself, what do you see? Lets start on the outside. Look into your eyes. Are they bright, filled with life, color, and warmth. Or are they black, filled with lost hope and longing. Now look down to your neck. Is there a necklace around it, given to you by a loved one. Maybe a locket with the faces of those you hold dearest. What about your hands and wrists? Are they torn up and scared, bruised and bashed? Dont put them down, think back to what happened, whats the story, whats the reason, and then embrace it. But now go deeper, how do you feel? Whats wrong? Are you content with yourself, or is there a need for something more. Dont keep it bottled up, share it with the world and tell them how you feel. Are there scares on the inside that only you know exist? Dont conceal them. You arent the only one with these scares, you arent alone. You are beautiful, there is someone who cares, and it will get better. Dont walk away from the mirror, look at your gorgeous self, and promise that youll make an effort to get better. Because at the end of the day, the best medicine is believing in yourself. 

Book Review- Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close

     Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer. Words cannot describe how much I adore this book. I did see the movie before read the novel, and I fell in love with the movie. It was so moving and inspirational.
     I will say that the book is a bit of a tough read  The boy, who narrates the book, is very intelligent and speaks quickly with a very wide vocabulary. Often he switches from talking about one thing to talking about another and it can be confusing at times. Although one thing I must say that I loved about the book was it was very visual. Every once in a while there would be a picture going along with what he was talking about much like in the book Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs.
     Overall if you enjoy reading and read often I'd say this book is a great read that you would enjoy.
If you liked these books you might like EX&LC: Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children, The Descendants, and Balcony View.

Book Review- Room

"Room" By Emma Donoghue. If you haven't read it I would strongly recommend it to anyone who loves reading and even those who don't. I don't think I've ever read such an inspirational book before. And I don't want to give anything away but just go online and see if you can find a summary of it.

Personal Writings- My Mask

I feel hallow, like I'm screaming on the inside, but the only thing people see is the mask I wear on the outside. But if they were to take my mask off they would see my true expressions. The mask is what keeps people from seeing the real me.

Personal Writings- Pictures Tell

A picture is worth a thousand words and a thousand memories.

Personal Writings- Biased

I could how you what I write and how I feel. But it would be the same as if I told you, you still wouldn't care.

Personal Writings- Looks vs. Heart

One could be the prettiest woman on earth, but without a kind heart she knows no true love.

Personal Writings- (Inspiration from Lovely Bones)

He did it, the man from the book. They don't see what horrible things he's done. They cant see through his lies. But I do. I know what he's done. He killed me, not them.