Personal Writings- Depression Reality

How do you get mad at someone that hurts so badly? Its like digging your nails into an open wound. It already hurts from the initial cut, and now you go back and rip it open. They didnt ask for this to happen, they didnt ask to feel this way. You act like its their fault and take it out on them and in the end you make them hate not only you, but themselves as well. They dont have attitude, they arent mad at you and choosing to show no emotion. They physically cant. To try and put on a smile doesnt feel right, it hurts. They arent mad at you, or anyone else, they are just lost in themselves. That blank stare that you think means theyre ignoring you, is just their lack of emotion. They literally feel nothing. They want to feel happy, they want to feel something besides sorrow, but they just cant.